Overwhelmed

I have felt particularly stressed this week. Who am I kidding? I feel stressed every week! I am constantly worried about not doing enough or being enough for Scott and the kids, and because I spend so much time doing that, I don't have a lot of time to focus on myself. Maybe that's how it's supposed to be, though.

Cooper is getting 4 molars and his 2 top eye teeth. All at the same time. He doesn't handle pain very well, and he is extremely clingy. In the past, I constantly lamented that Macey wasn't a cuddly baby. Well, today, I could have been okay with another non-cuddly baby. Cooper doesn't feel well, and no matter how much medicine I have given him, he wants to be held constantly. He also screams and cries over everything.

It's an overwhelming experience because I know that I can't fix what is wrong with him, so I sit there and try to hold him through it.

Maybe today was a bad day to do laundry with all of this, but I had no choice. Dishes needed to be unloaded from the dishwasher, so we could eat breakfast and lunch. Meals needed to be made. Cooper had to be put down. Screaming ensued.

At the low point of today, I put Cooper in his crib to cry, apologized to Macey for not being able to pay attention to her today, and went in my room and bawled. I bawled like a baby. I was just so overwhelmed (that sure is the word today).

In the middle of crying, Macey came in the room, and said, "Mom, Cooper crying." I told her that I knew he was crying,  and I was sorry, but he just needed to cry right now. I just couldn't go get him yet. She left the room, and she went and stood by his door, listening. In a couple minutes, she came back in, and said, "Mom, crying?" I told her I was crying, and apologized again for falling apart. She ran away quickly and came back. She was carrying her bowl of popcorn. She sat right down next to me, and she just sat there. It was exactly what I needed. I'm so grateful for a daughter that loves me through my flaws.