It has been a whirlwind of a few weeks. I don't even know how to explain everything that has happened. I have been completely overwhelmed, but Scott has been, steadily, by my side through it all. He has also been able to exercise the priesthood he holds to give me blessings on several occasions.
One particularly difficult night, I felt overwhelmed with everything and trying to take care of everyone. In the blessing, Heavenly Father told me to not be so concerned with the welfare of Macey and Cooper. (I was seriously stressing out about not spending enough time with them individually and making sure they were properly entertained!) I was reminded that they have each other. I was told that they also have angels that assist them on a daily basis.
I am still so grateful for those words. It is hard to split time between three kids. Time is never split equally, and I feel like some or all of the kids are neglected. It has been tough (probably more on me than anyone else)! I am so thankful for the angels that are sent to make up the difference when I can not.
I told Scott that it reminded me of the phrase "it takes a village to raise a child". Maybe, in our case, it will take our entire family ancestry to raise ours!
My emotions have been close to the surface, lately. It's so easy for me to blame that on post-pregnancy hormones, and I have readily done that with all my kids. I realized, in the middle of sobbing, the other day, that my emotions have been placed like that on purpose. With a newborn baby around--with such a sensitive spirit--I think it requires a humbling of spirit, which hormones does. I feel so much more sensitive to the situations around me, and I feel like I am able to be directed as to what to do next. I am so grateful for the spirit which guides me in every decision.
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